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Friday, February 08, 2008

Brain Drain Day

I feel queasy and dizzy and potentially barfy today. Oddly enough, I felt that way last year too around this time. Is this a thing? I've noticed over the last two years that I get hit with a crushing depression in spring that lasts from February, when the snow is still in full force, until right around... May 1st. Suddenly it's like, boom the cloud lifts. Maybe recognizing it is the first step to blah blah blah blah blah.

Anyways, I did not drive out to the barn today, even though it's not painfully cold and the nice white sky is great for riding under because I don't have to squint. I don't feel like driving, let alone balancing myself on a horse's back. Just...bleccchhhh.



It's got to be bad when it's my scheduled barn day and I flake out.

So, it's just me and the Pug today, the cat off hiding somewhere soft, and the furnace hissing in the background. Cup of tea, bowl of soup. Internet lurking and not much commenting. A big book about the mechanics of riding lessons. A 55 year old novel that I should have read ages ago. And a 346 page chunk of paper with my name on it, covered past the halfway point with pencil marks.

Not a total waste...

This week has been one heck of an emotional roller coaster.




Feeling yucky and down, generally, but excited and thrilled by Tuesday's announcement that it's not just me who really digs my talented husband, but that the Canadian music industry has once again decided to honour him with a crack at a big award. With all of this, I'm basically feeling a chest pain that's had me considering that bottle of "chill pills" that I keep in my purse for emergencies. I chose to walk it out instead. Is it working?

Don't know for sure.




Just don't know...

I'm going out to the farm tomorrow, I'm going to spend some quality time brushing my own horses and breathing into their apostrophe shaped nostrils, and I'm going to get some churching, and I'm going to hug my mom. I'll let you know how that all works out.

10 comments:

Olly said...

We have so much in common, health wise. My "cloud" sets in on me around early November and lifts around now. Christmas can take me to the brink at times.

That really yucky feeling? Could just be to much excitement and not enough sleep. The body gets so wound-up and just can't turn off to recover. Almost a hang over feeling for me at times. The chill-pill? Might not be a bad idea, but take it in the evening so you get a good rest. Feel better soon!

Hey! At least you can hear the hiss of your furnace. We woke up this morning to a freezing cold house. We are still waiting for the furnace guy to show up. Glad we still have lots of fire wood, lol!

Biddie said...

Olly raises a goodpoint. A warm is good. Trust me on this.
Spending time with your horses will help. It always does. Have fun :)

Victoria Cummings said...

Heidi - thanks for leaving me those kind notes. I'm glad you come by to visit my blog so often. Yes, go see the horses and you will feel better.

Heidi the Hick said...

Olly, there is something about this time of year. I think you're right about the over-excitement. And you beat me to it- I was already thinking that I'll take half a chillpill before bed.

Warm house= good!

Bid, did you know my mom's woodstove isn't operating anymore? They had to get their chimney redone and the flue is in the wrong place now or something. Bummer!

Thank you, Victoria.

I'm off tomorrow for some horse therapy!

Nicole said...

That last bit sounds like a good, effective cocktail, Heidi. I hope it takes. :-)

Sorry you've been down. Seems like many of us are going through something similar this time of the year.

dilling said...

have a refreshing weekend...

Rising Rainbow said...

Horse therapy sounds like the way to go. It always makes me feel so much better no matter for far down I am.

katy said...

spending the time with your horses and hugging your mom and getting some churching, you know what? that is going to be the best medicine you need right now, so go and enjoy it and feel good x

Lynn Sinclair said...

I prescribe sunshine and lots of it. Unfortunately, I'm not sure we can buy it around here.

Anita said...

I've never ridden a horse, but I've always loved spending time with them... Hope your weekend went well... :)