It took me a few years to figure it out, but it seems that every spring, I have a hard time coping with life. The past few months have been particularly stressing, but despite that, I'm actually doing pretty okay.
Here's the way I see it: Every spring people get a hint of what's to come and they start getting silly, running around in shorts and T shirts when it really isn't that warm yet, getting out their motorcycles and carefully stored summer cars, and packing away the snowblower. We all darn well know it's gonna snow again. It always does.
But for a short time, we sort of don't care.
That little taste of summer feels so good.
(I really must find a better tether for this poor guy. Spending the winter under a snowbank was not good for this rope. Last year's chain didn't do much better.)
This is the fourth day of sunshine. The corral is drying up and I finally feel like going out there and doing something with my two hayburners. Out in the pasture, a steady trickle of water runs down the low spot. All the snow banks are gone now. There are only a few wet spots in the corral. The horses have been rolling off chunks of winter fur, and providing us with regular horse shows.
The downside is that there's no way around it: SPRING STINKS.
In town, all the winter's worth of dog droppings surfaces in backyards, while out here, a giant pile of next year's compost is just cooking away in the sun and stinkin' up the place.
I walk the Pug around the back and stare down at the mud, and the slimy remains of melted snow. The horses are filthy. There's gravel in places it shouldn't be because of snowplows.
I don't think this is why I get seasonally depressed. I don't know why. I kind of don't care. I'll just keep taking my big pink capsules and running around with my dog and staring at the huge lamp every morning.
It's gonna be okay. It is every year. All I have to do is give it time. And you know what? Looking out the window and seeing this somehow makes it all feel so much better.
I have an appointment with Dr Puggy and Dr Phoenix this afternoon. Lucky me.