I'm actually in a bit of a foul mood today, but I'm going to try to forget all the crap in my head and cheer myself up with some of my favourite things.
I just love him. You all know by now what a character he is: arrogant, stubborn, and pushy. Everything you don't want in a husband, and that makes these qualities okay to have in a horse. But he's also good with the kids. And he knows what a camera is. He does. It's hard to take a bad picture of this horse!
ROCK STARS There has been much talk around my house lately about the new Audioslave single and how we are going to buy this album when it drops. I'm surprised at this new song because it's kind of upbeat and good-times-bonfire-truck-tailgate which are all good things! but just not what I expected. But of course, me being a loser for a handsome man with a mic, I'm looking forward to More Chris Cornell.
He blew my mind about 15 years ago with this whole shirtless Seattle long haired thing, with the wailing voice and the flames and all that. I'm hopeless.
Honestly those guys are so talented it wipes me out.
Also we're still pigging out on Red Hot Chili Peppers. Some of us just about can't get enough. I'm totally despondent that I couldn't get tickets for their September Toronto shows.
This morning I picked up new ones from AFI and Wolfmother. (I probably have clothes older than these kids.)
I'm taking a big chance here; I only know one single from each. I plan to listen intently for a few days. I'll get back to you!
He gives me a reason to get out of the house. I'm so sick of the streets in this subdivision but he doesn't care. He just wants to walk with me.
He tracks litter across the floor but makes up for it with the purring and the affection.
I GOT MY DINING ROOM TABLE CLEARED OFF
It's just beautiful. Look at the light. The negative space. So minimalist and sculptural. Brad Pitt would love this.
Ok he doesn't really cheer me up because he's bad. He dumped his wife. He got his girlfriend preggers while still legally married. He's one of those "Oh baby I will totally love your kids like they were my own" guys. But he has been one of my favourites for so long. Johnny Suede. And also because I dreamed that he took me grocery shopping and I know it was just a dream...but it was so nice of him.
They're just so awesome...they amaze me constantly. For the last week they've been intricately linked with their neighbour friends here in town and I have mixed feelings about it. It's great that they have friends to play with. It's good for us parents who trade off the watching of them. It's not so great for me because I'm still not used to having all these people around me, even if they're people I like. My entire adult life has been spent in an urban place (shudder) and I still haven't adjusted to being surrounded by all these houses and other people. However, my kids are having a great summer. I hope they let me spend some of it with them!
Look at this. Yes I have a farmer mailbox. It makes me happy to look at it.
I don't care how much my back hurts. I'm gonna dance after supper tonight.
Bestest just said yesterday that she finds it funny that I fell in love with Edward Scissorhands. Her daughter KK took offense to this. Johnny can do no wrong for KK and I. This weekend I'm going to finish watching Don Juan DeMarco. I love the faked accent. I love how Marlon Brando never looks like he's acting! Most of all I love the scene at the end with the meeting full of shrinks. (Yeesh. A whole room full.)
I hope I get my horse fix this weekend. I might not. But to fill the void I'm going to dance, sing, pull weeds, and maybe even pick up the guitar again. And I'm going to force myself to keep writing this novel I'm working on. Be happy dear readers. Even if you feel like crap and the gloom settles on you while the sun is shining. Even if you want to throw yourself off a cliff. We might not be able to just shake it off so easily but I for one refuse to be ruled by it.