Wednesday, June 16, 2010

You know what? I think I'm BACK.

To be honest, I kinda feel like I've been phoning it in lately.  I could trot out plenty of excuses: too busy hauling junk to the dump, eighteen loads of laundry a day, horses need to be massaged, really wrapped up in staring at the wall thinking about my next novel, catching up on sleep, really frickin' bummed out about whatever.  That'd all be pretty much true.  It's been Blog Lite around here for way too long.


I might be getting my groove back.

I'm feelin' it people.  I don't know why -- the meds are working?  summer?  -- but something's slowly clicking into place... nothing visible, nothing drastic.  The last 12 months have been a hard slog.  Like walking through mud every day.  The last six months in particular have been ridiculous, in a "When is this going to END" kind of way.  Just one crappy thing after another.  And I'm tired.  

But I survived. I'm surviving.  Still breathing.  Got all my appendages and teeth.  Sometimes it comes down to that, the simplest of gratitudes, and that's good enough.  

I can't afford to celebrate by dying my hair pink (man I would love to dye my hair pink right now, wooooo hooo) but I could shake things up here at Hick Chic.  

Thinking of a little redesign.  

I'm so fond of the clean white background and pink headings, but I'm considering something different.  

What do ya think?

I have no idea why it's so important to me that people I may or may not know should read all my rantings.  But I like it.  


Heidi Willis said...

I always feel like changing things this time of year. Do it. You can always change it back if you want.

And as for you... I'm so glad you're feeling like you're getting back. It's been a heck of a 12 months for you.

Biddie said...

Yay!It has been a nightmare for you the past months. It really has. You have handled yourself well, you are kicking ass in so many ways. You should be proud of yourself :)
We can celebrate by going to see The A Team on Tuesday. It will be soo cheap, I can pay your way if you can get into town. Whadda think? Sound like a plan?? You need some time off.

Paul Tee said...

I love it when things just click into place. Ride the wave, Heidi.

BTW, if you're dismantling the place I want the front window for my records.

You know, the two horses in the green pasture under a blue blue sky...

jules said...

I'm all for a rework, as long as it's not blue text on black, or some other 'hard to read' combo.

Glad you're feeling 'back'. I love coming here!

Heidi the Hick said...

Don't worry, it won't be hard to read. I mean, I read this thing too on occasion and I hate hate hate a screen that's hard to look at.

Just need to see something different...

I don't know what's making me feel better but I don't care, just gotta go with it. Maybe things are looking different enough in my surroundings to make me feel like the work is paying off, I won't be going through boxes and getting rid of stuff forever, and we'll be okay.

Nobody can die and nothing can burn down anymore though, ok world?

Got Appies? said...

Why not make pink hair a DIY thing? It costs like 8 bucks for a bottle of pink hair dye. Hell, I'll totally send you one- dying hair is the best cure for depression (I'm getting mine done Saturday, PTL!). Am I allowed to ship hairdye across the Canadian border?

pseudosu said...

I do DIY with the blue streak all the time. Go pink!!
Also, if you want a revamp I tried "blogger in draft template designer" for my recent overhaul and loved working with it.